Mandi's JournalSunday, June 6, 20048:35PM - Repent...I don't know what was wrong with me when I wrote the last entry... yes I guess I have been sorta contemplating my religous preference for a while, but I went totally overboard. I do believe in God, I always have, I just find it hard to believe sometimes. One of my best friends told me that it's OK to question God's motives, but never to question God himself. So, I will question God's motives, but I won't question God's existence anymore. I'll begin praying now for forgiveness for turning my back on my savior, and I just want to ask you to do the same. Pray for me to be strong enough and worthy of walking beside God. And I will also pray for the savior of others. I'm sorry, Lord, and anyone else whom I may have insulted or made angry as a result of my last entry. I think another reason I questioned God is because someone I care A LOT about is Pagan... so yea... I've been really confused lately about this... and having someone to talk to would be awesome, so PLEASE if you have the time e-mail me at rockergirl31689@yahoo.com or instant message me at mandimarissa06... I'm gonna go now because I feel bad about my sins... and also everyone pray for my Pagan friend [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<i [...] can't>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]
I don't know what was wrong with me when I wrote the last entry... yes I guess I have been sorta contemplating my religous preference for a while, but I went totally overboard. I do believe in God, I always have, I just find it hard to believe sometimes. One of my best friends told me that it's OK to question God's motives, but never to question God himself. So, I will question God's motives, but I won't question God's existence anymore. I'll begin praying now for forgiveness for turning my back on my savior, and I just want to ask you to do the same. Pray for me to be strong enough and worthy of walking beside God. And I will also pray for the savior of others. I'm sorry, Lord, and anyone else whom I may have insulted or made angry as a result of my last entry. I think another reason I questioned God is because someone I care A LOT about is Pagan... so yea... I've been really confused lately about this... and having someone to talk to would be awesome, so PLEASE if you have the time e-mail me at rockergirl31689@yahoo.com or instant message me at mandimarissa06... I'm gonna go now because I feel bad about my sins... and also everyone pray for my Pagan friend <I can't mention any names> and I'll work with him to try and let him see God for who He really is. Bye... Current mood: sinful Current music: no music, just the thoughts in my head Friday, June 4, 200410:47PM - confession...I have a confession to make... I don't think I believe in any sort of God... if this means I'm atheist, then so be it... that's my confession... I don't see how it could be possible for anything like a God to exist... and if one does then I've never been shown and it's never been proven to me... and yes, I do need proof before I'm gonna believe in something... I'm going with the evolution thing, so yea... I know a lot of you are gonna read this and be like OMG!!! MANDI'S ATHEIST! But deal with it... yea... bye... Current mood:  thoughtfulCurrent music: none Thursday, March 25, 20048:04PM - Projekt Revolution!Hey peoples... I'm going to the Projekt Revolution concert on August 14, 2004, with Mike Nobles, Tiffany Cooke, Dad, and probably John... Linkin Park's gonna be there (they're the main band), Snoop Dogg, the Used, and Korn are gonna be there too. It's at the Verizon Wireless Amphitheater in Charlotte, NC. So... go to it! Because the last concert Linkin Park did with Hoobastank, P.O.D., and Story of the Year was absolutely awesome! (If you didn't go to that concert then you have NO IDEA what you missed!) August 14 is Mike's birthday, so I'm taking him... mosh pit tickets are $49.50. I don't know about the other ones because, of course, I'm going to be in the mosh pit, screaming my head off, and jumping up and down like the crazy Linkin Park fanatic I am. Sooo... yea... just thought I'd let everyone know about the Projekt Revolution concert coming up, and buy tickets now because the last concert sold out fast! There's a link to the concert website on my webpage... the link to that's somewhere on this page... I think it says Mandi's Extremely Cool Site or something like that... peace out homies! Current mood:  crazyCurrent music: My radio's downstairs :( Monday, March 22, 20045:11PM - Don't feel goodMy head hurts and I feel really hungry even though I just ate... I'm falling apart! Too much stress on my little mind... yeah, that's it. I need closure. If you don't know what I'm talking about then stop reading because you won't understand anything that comes after this. I just need to know why it happened, I need for so many questions to be answered, but I don't think that'll happen. It would be so much easier on me, though! If I could have some closure then I wouldn't be so hard on myself about this! I'm just so glad that I have my friends to be with and to help me. Without you guys (you know who you are), I wouldn't be dealing with this as well as I am. But there are still times I get lonely and I start to think... think about everything that happened, and I get sad and start wondering again. OK, enough of that, peace out homie Current mood:  gloomyCurrent music: Linkin Park - "Breaking the Habit" Friday, March 19, 20048:58PM - SadLife's not going too great now, who knows, maybe I'm just overreacting, which I tend to do a lot, but still, things aren't working out too well for me. And school goes back Monday, which sucks monkey butt. I wanna do something with some friends, so if you're up to it then lemme know... yea... I wanna sleep and not wake up for three days... it was hot today... that was awesome cuz I got to sit out in the sun, oh yea and I got a job! That's a good thing in my life I guess, so maybe it's not as bad as it seems... I'm just lonely... and I'm saving up to get a keyboard and a car, and I made up "Hello" by Evanescence today by ear on the piano... I'm gonna play it in my old piano teacher's recital and my sister's gonna sing it... fun stuff... idk what I'll sing, probably My Immortal, but I don't wanna do too much Evanescence... oh well least of my worries... yea... bye... Current mood:  sadCurrent music: Evanescence - "Hello" Wednesday, March 17, 20049:14PM - My B-dayMy bday was yesterday (3/16)! woowoo! Didn't get much stuff but that's not the point... I had a good time so it was all good... I went to the eye-doctor in the morning, which is usually not all that great but considering the fact I couldn't see for the past 2 months, it was a blessing! Then I went to IHOP with Dad, Lisa, Tiffany, and my lil sis Ashley... and I ate chocolate chip pancakes! It was great... then we went to the mall and I bought the most awesomest sunglasses, a cuuuuuute dress, and red capris that say Lifeguard on the butt from Deb... mm... then I went home and chilled for a lil while, then I had to go to the hospital because my grandpa's got bronchitus... joy... so we stayed there for about an hour then went to eat dinner at Cagney's beside Baptist hospital... then we went home and I opened presents while watching American Idol... I got matching two-toned necklace and bracelet... which is what i wanted so I was happy... and my sister made me a teddy bear at Build-A-Bear, which was wearing a Wake Forest shirt (GO WAKE! DUKE SUCKS!)... then I went to Dad's place and spent the night... there I watched American Wedding and ate nachos! After the movie went off I watched Fuse (which is sooooo better than MTV! MTV SUCKS!) until about 1 in the morning then I fell asleep and came back home this morning... I watched Lifetime all day today then went out to eat with Mom, Dad, Mike, Lisa, and Ashley at Golden Corral, then walked around the mall for about 45 minutes and now here I am! I'm talking to Mike Nobles, who's my baby's daddy... lol I'm j/k... I'm so happy! I'll probably get to see Mike this Friday... if he doesn't have another stupid band gig! lol... welp peace out homies, and check out the Linkin Park page on my website! Byez! Current mood:  coldCurrent music: Outkast - I like the way you move Monday, March 15, 20045:50PM - First Day with livejournal!Woowoo! I finally got one of these things... I'm pretty happy right now... besides the fact that I CAN'T SEE! lol oh well i'll deal right? It's Spring Break too! Woot! And tomorrow's my bday! Happy birthday to me! alrighty then... I also have my website up and running... it's still not completely finished tho so yea just hang with me for a couple of weeks and I'll get it up... the link should be somewhere on this page but in case it's not, the address is http://mandim31689.tripod.com okies... well i'm outta here for now cuz i'm doing 10,000 things at once and after I close out this window then it'll only be 9,999! alrighty so yea, peace homies! and this page is SAUCY! lol laura! Current mood:  cheerfulCurrent music: Maroon 5 |
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